in honor of the maze at hampton court palace

I set out to get lost one day
If I may
Rely upon the ancient text
It works like this, in retrospect:

I had to run and clear my head
I had to smell the sweet perfume
That lying in my dusty bed
Only led to doubt and gloom

I lept up bright one morning grey
No need for coat or shoes
I lept up at the break of day
My feet, the engines of my muse

I ran to that twisted green
All secret plans absorbed there
From only above could I be seen
Thus safe from idle courtiers

And there in pointless paths
I opened up my heart
And watched it fly away
As birds do with a start

I saw it sit so freely
In the tree above my head
As I continued pacing
Crooked lines of bushy mead

I ran, hands brushing living walls
Turning green as the leaves they kissed
I ran both hidden and exposed
Watching my storm clouds shift

The earth had hugged me oh so well
As I stamped across her moss
And God gifted me with being found
The moment I cried, "I am lost"!

termini

Spit me out, suck me in
Heavy, breathing human waves
Further down and further in
Where am I going with you, Stranger?
And why does the air smell of danger?

All our beginnings and all of our ends
Meet in this station of enemies and friends
The hunting in the darkness
The groaning of the poor
I hear their spirits cry as
Mine shuffles across the floor

I'm not sad I missed it
I'm not sad to wait
Because here I like to meet the Beast
And greet her face to face

They say that she's eternal
But only God can be
So I look for light in the distance
Swelling into this human sea
Where He hovers, the Great Immutable,
Behind this ever-changing scene.

into infinity

I think I cut off all my hair to get a grip on losing things
To beat loss to its nasty grave, catch death before its sting

Cuz you know I’m just like you, made of thick and stubborn skin
I’d rather be self-sufficient than try to fit-in

But I’m sitting here now with hot tears down my neck
Memories a mile a minute—trying to stay in check

My Filippo will learn the lesson early: we can’t hold forever the people we love most
But bloodline-spiritline-storyline remain our silent host

How I loved going to bed when you put me to bed
Last night I would have returned the favor instead

But I heard you breathing, the phone resting on your chest
And Grandpa said you smiled, somehow you gave me your best

But you always did, so it wasn't a surprise
My years founded on your prayers and sacrifice

I promise I’ll have trumpets at my wedding, maybe even a door that’s red
I’ll save your mother’s teacups, I’ll treasure the things you said

Though last time you said nothing, you only gripped my hand
Clenched it so tightly, my young bones at your frail command

I cried my way through security
In hazy, dreamlike absurdity

I cried my way across ocean and sea
Everyone a little too nice to me

I remember times when it had been easier to go
You were just a ferry away, we'd play with gingerbread and snow

But this time was different, we both knew
I felt like I was abandoning you

Oh when we love!--when we love, we love hard
But we can't out-love Love, no matter how scarred

Because He loved us first
He gave us this thirst

For surrendering all
We learn to fly in the fall

I know you are finally waking—from the sleep that we called Life
And I long to be as alive as you, and free from earthly strife

But our days are engraven in eternity
And I'll honor each into infinity

As you showed me how
Unto Jesus now